I’ve been thinking about whether or not I want to remain anonymous on this tumblog because 1) it would allow me to write more freely without having to think about any repercussions and 2) much less embarrassment. 

Every once in a while I enjoy a nice alcoholic beverage and these beverages often result in very eventful evenings full of great vibes. These experiences are definitely things that I would want to blog about, but if my identity was out there, I don’t think I’d be able to do that at all. 

I also encounter many social situations that I’d love to blog about. These might involve some acquaintances that would find it very off-putting to find a whole blog post written about the tiniest little encounter that they had with me and I don’t want to make anyone feel any more uncomfortable than I already do. 

These are just a couple examples of the reasons against revealing my identity that have gone through my mind. The only advantages that I could think of is that I would get full credit for my writing, and I won’t feel like I have to hide who I am. Like, I could be specific and talk about what school I attend or things like that. A paranoid thought just popped into my head that someone will find this blog and figure out my identity then track me down and this is how I’m going to die. 

I guess this isn’t even an online issue, it’s an issue of whether or not I want to tell my friends or family about this blog. That’s what really matters.

I can’t tell my family because I don’t tell them anything about my life. They can’t know that I drink, or party, or kiss boys, or kiss girls.

I could maybe tell some of my friends? However, I definitely act differently depending on which friend I’m hanging out with, and if they knew about this blog, that’s just a whole nother identity of Amy that they will get to know. That’s too much Amy. Oh shit I just told you my name.

I recently read a listicle on the things that are recommended you do before graduating college. One of those things was to share your passion with the world, and the internet is definitely the easiest way to do that. That is why I’m creating this blog. 

I know that blogs are not very popular in the mainstream because most people ages 18-25 (aka the people who decide what’s “cool”) don’t want to sit down and read words. They want GIFs and videos, or other pretty things to keep them entertained. 

However, although Buzzfeed lists are definitely fun to look at and a great way to waste time, my favorite Buzzfeed posts are their longreads. These articles are informative, mindful, and most importantly, thought-provoking. Sometimes these articles can be about the most mundane things, but in the end they make me think about my own life. It’s like Seinfeld (the show about nothing that somehow relates to and dissects everything in my life). It gives me high hopes for the future of writers on the internet and it would be a dream come true for me to be a part of that future. 

I’ve reached a point in my life where I have an endless amount of opportunities in front of me and am faced with the challenge of deciding which ones to take advantage of. I’ve found that an easy way to make this decision is to imagine myself in a different stage of my life (perhaps post-graduation) and think about all the things that I will regret not doing. 

One of those things is definitely starting a blog. I’ve already regretted it and now’s the time to turn that around. 

Have you ever had that thought/complaint where you wished you started something way earlier? Well, in my opinion, if you keep thinking from the future, you’ll never have anything to think about but the past. That sounds like a real quote but I actually just bullshitted it. 

I think the internet provides a great medium for writers to reach wide audiences and although the majority of audiences are looking for instant gratification, I’m looking for long-lasting mindfulness. If that sounds like something you might be interested in, then welcome to this mess that I call a blog :)